Of course im talking about the last couple days. I mean ive had both good things and bad things happen. Nothing massivly major in either direction. But still. Lots of things add up over time dont they? Well lets start off with yesterday. I get up at 645 on 3 hours sleep like i normally do to get to my 8am class. Get up, get ready and head to school. On the way to class i notice that the steering feels a little off, but just figured it was because i was exhausted. I get to class, and there was like all of 6 people in class. Figures since we had a test on tuesday they knew they could miss. Well anyways the teacher lets us out early since she didnt really want to move onto to much new stuff. So i think about registering for classes, but i was dead tired and just wanted to sleep, so i said ill take care of that on monday. Which i still plan on doing. So i head out to my car. Get in and start to pull away only to feel the front left of the car going bump,bump,bump. I get out. I had a fuckin flat. Figures. So i go to the gas station right next to the campus, luckily there was enough air so i wasnt riding on the rim. I get there and put air in the tire to see if maybe it was an april fools joke and someone just let the air out. No fuckin chance. The second i fill it up i hear air rushing out of it. So i fill it back up, and take off hoping to make it home without the tire running out of air. So im goin about 75 on the road back to oswego, not the safest thing yes, but i was on a time frame here. So i get home and know im gonna have to put the donut on it. But i figure doesnt matter right now im not going anywhere so why not just go to bed. So thats what i did, i slept. But before sleeping i message Bryan and ask him to help with the tire, since yes paul hasnt had to change a tire before and isnt to handy with a jack. So he came over when i woke up around like 230. So of course at this time it has to be raining right? I mean there is no way its gonna be sunny out when i have to change a tire. So me and bryan work on changing the tire and get it done. We come inside and start talkin about lots of things. Then i realized what time it was and that i had to jet because i promised jess i would pick her up at 345 for her appointment at 4.
So i speed across town and make it to the campus. I get there and jess thought i had forgotten about her. So i told her i was sorry, car had a flat and i had to fix it. Which isnt a lie. So we get in the car and head to the appointment. Now me and jess were supposed to talk afterwards but she told me she had to talk to her dad about the fasfa after her meeting but that we could talk after that if i wanted so i agreed. I then dropped her off to her meeting and headed back here to kill time for an hour. I went and picked her back up and we went back to the dorms and decided we were going to get dinner after she was done talking to her dad as well. Since we both hadnt eaten. Well about an hour later or so she finishes with her dad, but she had forgotten about a concert at 8 and it was about 7 at the time we were gonna leave. She didnt want to cut our time short or cut our discussion short so she called her friend and told him that she wasnt going to be able to make it because she had promised me to have the talk and eat. I appreciated that, i mean i was happy that she was willing to miss it for our conversation. So we go to wendys and get food. Of course she gets mayonaise to go with the ketchup to put on her fries. I still just shake my head at that. Its disgusting, case closed. Plus we arent in holland are we?? Isnt that where they put mayonaise on fries??
Anyways we discuss her dream, we discuss my dream. We discuss my smoking habits and how she doesnt really like them since i am killing myself slowly and she hates to see me do it. So i actually didnt smoke on our ride later where as i would normally have had about 4 in the time frame. We discuss my blog while in wendys. She tells me that things i have written as of late have worried her and made others worry as well. I told her that wasnt my intent and it wasnt. Its just that is my frame of mind, has been for a long time. I just have been able to hide it.. And yes i do have it in my profile so those that want to can read it. But the fact still remains that the blog is to help me ease my mind right? I mean its for me to get shit off my chest and to vent. So im going too. No pulled punches, nothin like that. So consider this the warning for future posts. Some will be depressing. Some will be happy. All will probably somewhat long and more then likely a little weird when comming from my mind. So if you are afraid you might read something that makes you either mad, sad, glad and any other word that has ad in it. I mean serioulsy if you dont think you can handle what i say dont read. Im sure i will worry people at times. But understand its better i write it down then keep inside isnt it? If i keep things inside wont the eat away at me and turn me into a monster? Or worse yet, someone who just hates everyone and himself? So i say what i want and what i feel. Its the way things are.
Sorry about that. Now back to the story. So we get done eatting and go to have our talk. I will leave specifics out of it becasue it was a personal conversation between me and jess. Just understand that we both had good talks. And amazingly enough i was actaully able to say things this time. I have a bad habit of saying i want to talk about something and then not being able to in person because to be honest females just intimidate the hell out of me. Not sure why but they do. Anyways we finish our conversation and i bring her back to the dorms so she can get ready to see her friend later. She gave me a couple hugs while saying bye because i know she saw i was kind of sad. Sadly i cant really tell ya why it just has to do with the last part of conversation and the way i felt about something. She told me that what i felt wasnt true and it wasnt going to be like that and to trust her. So i try, but its hard. I mean i just look at the circumstances and just dont see a way to believe it can work the way she said. Anyways i leave and head home, and on the way back to my apartment i feel my eyes start to water. And im thinking to myself what the hell?? Why on earth are my eyes watering. So i make sure i get home fast. I get home and feel myself in a very down mindset. And i just couldnt figure out for the life of my why the hell i was down. I had an idea but i didnt know if that could be it. But i finally figured it out in my head. I dont know if i should say it in here or not. What the hell i know its not the smartest move but its better out then in. I realized that i had missed jess. Missed talking with her, missed hanging out with her. Missed the hugs and closeness. And i also realized that im gonna miss them more now. Im sure some of you know our friendship has taken a hit this semester. With me being off campus and everything. And i just dont know if we can fix it. So thats what made me sad i think. Is that even with how much i miss seeing her and talking with her about things and being close that its just not going to go back to the way it was, no matter how much i wish it could. Anyways jess agreed while getting out of the car it is harder to talk about things in person. And that we would continue our conversation very soon. Which i hope we do. Im sure in due time we will. Anyways the rest of that night is very uneventful, i played some xbox and and watched tv. Ahh cowboy bebop, family guy and futurama. Its a good hour an a half spent nightly. Then i remember shit, Kid notorious is on Comedy central. So i actaully watched that instead of Family guy and Futurama last night. Its a funny fuckin show. I enjoy it, hope its comming back soon.
So that brings us to today. I get up at 2 today. Thats right i can sleep in on basically any day i wish. Its great. Except today i woke up with a fuckin migrane. I didnt play around with it today, i went took some stuff and got rid of that fucker. I get them alot in spring it sucks. So then i decide to call dad and say call larry and ask him to look at the tire and see if it can be fixed. No word from dad an hour later so i call larrys garage and talk to them. They said yes we can look at it but be here by 430. I said no problem it was 345 i should be there easily by then. Well i forgot about the trafic issue in oswego on fridays. So it was traffic jam. Doenst help when 3 cop cars and 2 ambulences are on the other side of the bridge because of some accident or something. Luckily i noticed it before i headed across and cut across two lanes to turn left and go down a back road. Saved some time there, that im sure of. So i get to larrys at about 422. Lucky me. He fixed the tire and only charged me 5 bucks. Which was fine by me. So i drive home and get ready for a night with the guys.
I was gonna meet Bryan and Ryan around 645 for pizza at cams then we were goin to the movies to see Walking Tall. So we went and ate, went and saw the movie. It was as good as i expected. No great story, decent action with the rock hitting people with a big piece of lumber. And Knoxville had some good comedy lines in the movie. So after that we leave and the guys invite me back to the dorms for awhile. Of course i accepted. I mean it was that or come here and sit by myself. Yay!. So we go back and me and Bryan play a little football on his xbox. Of couse we dominated. Im happy to report that the fist game. Half Back Paul Lefebvre had rushed for 134 yards and 3 touchdowns on like 12 carries. Oh yea did i mention that Lefebvre is the top running back in the league. And of course he is made to stats. 5'8 300lbs. I mean sure maybe i lied a bit on the speed and such but really whos looking at that. So while we are playing a second game, Ryan gets a message from Nate askin if we wanted to go visit and have some beers. We said sure why the hell not.
So on the way to Nates i see this car pull a U-turn and start following me. I mean whenever i turned he would stick with me. I figured shit, its either some i have pissed off, or someone hoping to see where i leave the new car. I go to park in front of nates and the car slows down, they look at me and then pull down the road a bit. The turn back around and head back. I figure great they are gonna bitch at me for something. They stop the car and say, Do you know where the happin bars are tonight? I was like um not really. So ryan comes over thinking they are givin me shit. And he gladly tells them a couple bars to go to. They were 30 year old guys from niagra falls looking for college tail. In this town their chances of getting some is about a 95%. So congrats guys. Anyways we go inside and there is no nate. We call throughout the house, no nate, no answer. So we decided to wait a couple mins. Nate comes back he had to go get some keroseen for the heater. So we sat in the living room and talked for about an hour and a half. Guys being guys. It was fun. I enjoyed it. Then we had to leave, Bryan has a Tournament tommorow in fulton. He is gonna be fighting the blackbelts from other areas. Good luck buddy. So we say night and bryan lets me borrow his jack and jack stand so i can change my tire tommorow when i get up. I got laundry to do and a tire to change so i should try and get up at a resonably early hour. Maybe noon.
And that brings us back to here. Where i am yet again watchin tv, playin videogames, and writing in my blog. I do have some things on my mind. Im sure that some of you can figure out what. Especially with this post. Im sure my mind will be at ease at somepoint and then i can just enjoy myself. I just really hope me and jess can finish our conversation either tommorow or sunday. But definatly before i leave for break on wednesday. Anyways i hope you guys enjoyed that thing i posted earlier today. Im happy you did it lyndsay. And of course your white. You know that. We understand each other great. Hence the reason i said that thing was fuckin accurate on basically all accounts.
Im sure you can see the good and bad things the last couple of days. Good things such as the talk with jess, hanging out with the guys. The bad things such as Flat tire comming out of class, thinking someone is gonna start some shit, and having to realize why i was sad last night. I would still say the good things outweighed the bad a little bit. But not by much that flat tire just pissed me off so much. Even new cars give me problems. Like chris said in his message to me yesterday. That i have no luck with cars. I should get either a horse. Or a midget with a saddle. Frankly i think the midget with a saddle sounds more fun. Could you imagine pullin up to school on a midget. Just think of the chicks you would score with that. Oh yea!!
