Few Quick things

First off, sorry i havent written in awhile. Havent had that much to say about anything really. But ive had some thoughts on things recently and just figured i should jot them down real quick. I can go into detail tommorow.

First, my brothers wedding was last weekend. It was alot of fun and i had a really good time. In the next couple of days ill be posting some pictures from it so everyone can see. The wedding helped me with something. Its kind of weird. But it did. My brothers faith in me. My brother put me in charge of so many things for his wedding, so many responsibilities. And yes, i was nervous. I am always nervous. But I did them all, took care of everything so that my brother could have a great wedding, because he fucking deserved it. But just in the last week ive noticed something. Im not as nervous as i used to be. I dont worry as much. And i have a strong feeling that its because I was able to do so much for my brother. I had to give the first speech at the reception. I did, and later my brother and his wife came over to tell me that they were really surprised by my speech and it really made them feel good. Isabelle, actually told me it was the only time the whole day that she felt like crying. My brother told me he was surprised with how well i handled it, how i didnt rush things, i took my time, and delivered a very nice speech. That made me one of the happiest people there. Next day, i go to the brunch and sit next to dan and isabelle, they tell me they didnt realize how much stuff they actually had me do the day before and they were surprised i took care of everything for them. I told them it was nothing, and that i enjoyed doing it. Then i thought about it, i wasnt nervous when i was doing the things they asked. I was nervous before but once it hit, i did it no problems. And ive noticed a difference. I mean this weekend i went to the dome in syracuse to see the orange football team play a scrimmage. Normally i would have been nervous as hell going somewhere ive never been where alot of people would be. But not this time. I was calm as hell. And i couldnt understand why. But i have. Im not getting nervous about as much anymore. The wedding actually helped calm my nerves go figure.

The other thing i wanted to talk about really quick was that things fade. Everything fades, nothing is out of its reach. That includes friendships. Now i dont want people thinking things. Im just saying that with a couple people ive noticed the friendship wane. And its understandable. Im surprisingly ok with it. Im sure sometime down the road maybe the friendship can be ok again. Now dont get me wrong im not saying i hate these people and stuff, but its different now. Been that way for the last month or so and dont know why. Things just happen i suppose. I still enjoy hanging out with them and such. But its different, its hard to explain. I guess the easiest way would be to say the closeness is gone. Its become more of a hey how ya doin type of thing instead of a can i talk to you about something type. But its fine, and im fine with it. I just wanted to say that i cherrish all my friendships. Even ones i have with people i havent talked too in ages. Like Goose and steph. They are still my good friends. And that will never change. But at times, certain friendship fade, no matter how much we dont want them too. And this is one of those times. So ill just say goodbye for now. More on these subjects at a later time.